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Various Angles of Anne

Filed under: Narcissism — lilacnpink at 5:27 pm on Saturday, December 29, 2007

Because of retail therapy I bought a Web cam. I never really felt
the need of a Web cam before but when shopping is the cure for your
depression who cares about the need? ;-p

I took still photos using it and since they’re too many I’ll just post the link of the album here:

Moments of Shailology

Etymology
of shailology: I have a friend/officemate named Shai and she loves
taking pictures of herself. She has an album in multiply that contains
112 pictures of her using her Web cam and camphone. Hehe…

Givin’ Up On You

Filed under: Music — lilacnpink at 8:11 pm on Thursday, December 27, 2007
Givin` Up On Youby Lara Fabian

                           

Silence and quietAgain in my lifeFar from these moments, I wish I was

Passion and truthWe were aboutBefore these shadows stole the beat of our hearts

After all we have been throughI can only look at youThrough the eyes you lied toI'm givin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up on youAfter all if there is no way outIf you cannot stand beside me If there isn't love, there is only prideI'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fight

Undo this leashWhen you say I tiedWhen only our fears are to blame this timeAnd what am I to youJust spit it outI'm not afraid of the words that you hide

After all we have been throughI can only look at youThrough the eyes you lied toI'm givin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up on youAfter all if there is no way outIf you cannot stand beside meIf there isn't love, there is only pride

I'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fight

Where do we goWhen did it all crashWhen did it start to fall apart

Silence and quietPassion, the truthShadows, only shadows

After all if there is no way outIf you cannot stand beside meIf there isn't love, there is only prideI'm givin' up, I'm givin' up

After all we have been throughI can only look at youThrough the eyes you lied toI'm givin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up on youAfter all if there is no way outIf you cannot stand beside meIf there isn't love, there is only prideI'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fightGivin' up, givin' up this fightGivin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up this fightI'm givin' up, givin' up tonightGivin' up, givin' upI'm givin' up, I'm givin' upI'm givin' up, I'm givin' up this fight

nakakapagod...ano nga iyong sabi ni jen capiral? nakakapagod maghantay sa taong wala kang maaasahan

Getting Over You Playlist

Filed under: Music — lilacnpink at 6:57 pm on Wednesday, December 26, 2007

i got these songs from my dear friend donna, who’s reminding me i don’t deserve the bs i’m getting…

I’M GONNA BE ALRIGHT
(Jennifer Lopez)

It’s funny ’cause for a while
I walked around with a smile
But deep inside I could hear voices telling me this ain’t right
Don’t you know it’s not for you
I always knew what I had to do
But it’s hard to get away
Because I love you I just tried to stay

I used to say I couldn’t do it, but I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn’t with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes, I can feel it
And I know inside I’m gonna be alright

Friends of mine say to me
They say you got control over me
You’re not alone
I played a part
I saw the way you were from the start
Could I expect so much from you
You had a girl when I first met you
Did the best that you could do
Now I realize that I can’t change you

I used to say I couldn’t do it, but I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn’t with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes, I can feel it
And I know inside I’m gonna be alright

Said I wouldn’t walk away
Some days I want to stay
But leaving you is what I need to do to be okay
Never thought it would be true
Me livin’ without you
But now it’s time for me to make that move

I used to say I couldn’t do it, but I did it
After telling everybody that I wasn’t with it
Though it brings tears to my eyes, I can feel it
And I know inside I’m gonna be alright

NOT UR GIRL
(Katharine McPhee)

From the first time I saw you
When I thought that we’d be cool
But I overestimated us boy (you boy, you boy)
Cause we started out as friends (friends)
And I thought that’d never end
Even when we turned into more

[Chorus:]
And we moved into the fast lane (fast lane)
Oh we just collided in the fast lane (fast lane)
And even though we tried it
We ain’t goin no place
And there’s no going back for us now, no way
I think it’s time we set things straight
I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
Don’t get confused because you see me lookin’ at you, no baby
I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
And I’m not leaving with you just because you asked me to, no no

I know you want me, but it’s just too late
Don’t try and stop me or get in my way

Don’t you look at me like that
It don’t matter how you act
You and me are now in the past
And then I see you walkin by
Don’t be surprised if I say hi
But it won’t be anymore than just that

[Chorus]
Now moving down the fast lane (fast lane)
Oh we just collided in the fast lane (fast lane)
And even though we tried it
We ain’t goin no place
And there’s no going back for us now, no way
I think it’s time we set things straight
I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
Don’t get confused because you see me lookin’ at you, no baby
I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
And I’m not leaving with you just because you asked me to, no no
I know you want me, but it’s just too late
Don’t try and stop me or get in my way
I know you want me, but it’s just too late
Don’t try and stop me or get in my way

You should have thought about the way that you treated me
You should have thought about the things that you said to me
I shoulda walked away the first time I saw your face
It so distracted me nearly lost it in the fast lane

I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
Don’t get confused because you see me lookin at you, no baby
I’m not ur girl (no not ur girl)
And I’m not leaving with you just because you asked me to, no no

I know you want me, but it’s just too late
Don’t try and stop me or get in my way
I know you want me, but it’s just too late
Don’t try and stop me or get in my way


SINCE YOU’VE BEEN GONE

(Kelly Clarkson)

Here’s the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you’ve been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn’t long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you’ve been gone

And all you’d ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That’s all you’d ever hear me say

But since you’ve been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you’ve been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you’ve been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you’ve been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you’ve been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can’t take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you’ve been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you’ve been gone
Since you’ve been gone
Since you’ve been gone

I’M NOT MISSING YOU
(Stacie Orrico)

ooh oh

im not missing you

mmmm

been through just about everything
that i could go through when it comes to relationships
dont know what i was missing or why i aint listen
when i told myself that was it
but here i go hurt again cause
of my curiosity now that its over
what else could it be
besides a cheat

i made a promise
never to settle (why didnt i keep it)
cos i needed the heart break
cryin and cheatin the fooling around

but im not missing u

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u

its a shame in a way
cos i feel that i may not
ever fine the right one for me
did i leave him this year
i didnt find a face oh
will my true love ever be
how could i go on a search again
when i know what the end will be
what good is love when it keeps on hurting me

i made a promise
never to settle (why didnt i keep it)
cos i needed the heart break
cryin and cheatin the fooling around

but im not missing u

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u

no i cant be with u cos
im scared felt like i was falling when u left me
i cant keep going through life
unaware of what im missing
or the person that i could be
loves good when its right
bad when its left
in ur memory all the time anytime
i guess love will be nice for someone
this is life

im not missing u

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
im not missing u
u mighta had me open
but i must be goin because
i got lots to do
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u

im not going through emotions
waiting and a hoping u call me
(knocking at my door)
u mighta had me open (ay oh)
but i must be goin because
(this is the best day of my life)
i know im usually hanging on
i used to hate to see u go
but this time its different
i dont even feel the distance
im not missing im not missing u
(im not missing, wooooh yea, im not missin u, no baby, im not missin u)

x’s: there’s a link for each of the songs mp3

Expressions

Filed under: Comment — lilacnpink at 9:10 pm on Monday, December 24, 2007

i’m trying to avoid the use of the word dear, seriously. (i don’t like hearing it, so why would i use it?)

seriously is a favorite expression of mine right now.

Last Christmas

Filed under: Music — lilacnpink at 10:07 am on Monday, December 24, 2007

LAST CHRISTMAS

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone
I’ll give it to someone……special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognize me?
Well, it’s been a year
It doesn’t surprise me

Happy Christmas
I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I’ve been
But if you kissed me now
I know you’d fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll send it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I’m hiding from you and your soul of ice
I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in her heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Now I’ve found a real love you’ll never fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

LISTEN TO DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF THE SONG

To Ly and Kaka

Filed under: Friends — lilacnpink at 8:33 am on Saturday, December 22, 2007

Dcfc0009

two of my co-editors resigned this weekend–ly and kaka–and i will surely miss these guys…

i
feel so close to these guys because we were promoted almost at the same
time and we all came from another account. (all from a travel account)
we were all assigned to offline first and were transferred to
entertainment together. we’ve been through a lot — gazillions of
files, office issues and happy and wonderful moments as friends. i
really am saddened that they have to leave, but i believe that leaving
would actually be the best thing for them right now.

ly and kaka, i just wish you all the best. i’ll always treasure the friendship that we have.  love you guys a lot! >(",)<

Happy

Filed under: Narcissism — lilacnpink at 3:49 pm on Sunday, December 9, 2007

i just woke up one day and decided that i want to be happy, and true enough since that moment i haven’t cried again because of what happened last september. thank God for that ^^;

GND Get Together

Filed under: Friends — lilacnpink at 11:38 pm on Saturday, December 8, 2007

Dsc00286me and my barkada had our pre-christmas get-together yesterday. we met
up at the glorietta activity center, had lunch and proceeded to red box
greenhills where we sang our hearts out. after that we checked out clothes in the nearby department store and hung out at the
starbucks in 6750.

Dcfc0038
i really had fun. i missed these guys and
it’s so nice to see them. i just hope we’ll be more next time. we’ve
been too busy with work that we seldom go out. anyway, we decided to
see each other the first sunday of every month. hope that happens.

Dsc00304we love to sing and we love to take pictures. here’s our album for this get-together in multiply: GND Pre-Christmas Get Together