Random Thoughts of Anne

ALMOST LOVER by Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

"Anna is not sick,
but she might as well be. By age 13, she has undergone countless
surgeries, transfusions and shots so that her older sister, Kate, can
fight the leukemia that has plagued her since childhood. The product of
preimplementation genetic diagnosis, Anna was conceived as a bone
marrow match for Kate–a life and a role she has never
challenged…until now. Like most teenagers, Anna is beginning to
question who she truely is. But unlike most teenagers, she has always
been defined in terms of her sister. So, Anna makes a decision that for
most would be unthinkable–a decision that will tear her family apart
and possibly have fatal consequences for the sister she loves."

Jodi
Picoult’s novels are more than interesting. They do not draw you into
other worlds, but makes you take a look into things that are either
taken for granted or people don’t dare to look at.

In this part
romance, part courtroom thriller and part social commentary, Picoult
drives her readers through a family’s tale of dysfunction, betrayal and
redemption.

What enticed me in picking up the book "My Sister’s
Keeper" was it reminded me of a CSI episode that I watched where the
"victim" was a girl, conceived the way Anna was, and whose seeming sole
purpose was to give body parts to his brother with cancer. But "My
Sister’s Keeper" is far more complicated than the kidnap-murder case of
CSI that I watched.

Here is a story of a family who battles with
death every single day for 14 years and is in the midst of moral and
ethical dilemma with regards to their two daughters. The story is not
just told through the eyes of Anna, the "giving" daughter who seemed to
only exist in relation to her sister Kate, but as well as through the
eyes of Brian, the father, a firefighter who can save everyone else’s
life but his daughters’; Sara, the mother, a former lawyer that opted
to just represent her children everywhere, every time, even in the court
of death; Jesse, the brother, frustrated for not being worthy to save
his sister and thus became obsessed with controlling something as
uncontrollable as fire; and Campbell and Julia, Anna’s lawyer and
guardian ad litem, once lovers and now are caught in the Fitzgerald’s
war with Kate’s leukemia and Anna’s struggle to still be part of that
war without being the only weapon.

Once I started reading the
book, I wasn’t able to put it down. I couldn’t wait to know what
happened to the characters. Picoult has written these characters in a
way that there was no room for me to be judgmental of them, but a lot
of space for hopes for them to grow.

I hoped for Kate to get the
organ she needed to live, yet I also hoped for Anna to gain control of
her body. I hoped for Jesse to feel he’s worth something even if it
didn’t mean being a donor to his sister. I hoped for Brian and Sara to
keep their family intact and not lose any of their daughters. And I
hoped for Campbell and Julia to workout their issues from the past, not
just for themselves but for Anna.

I had all these hopes for the
characters, but the ending of the book was something far different from
what I hoped for and nothing that I expected.

Love Story
by Katherine McPhee

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh ah
oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh ah

I think it was the summer time
When I laid eye’s on you
I didn’t even know you’re name
Some how we’d end up in the same room
Never crossed my mind
I never saw you like that
I should’ve listened to my best friend
She knew we’d be a perfect match

It’s a typical love story
We started out as friends
We met way back when
This is just a
Typical love story
The boy you never wanted
Just steals your heart
I never saw it comin’
Till I fell so hard

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh ah

I always made up some excuse
Sayin’ that you weren’t my type
Didn’t wanna face the truth
Didn’t wanna cross that line
Till one day I saw you
Out of the corner of my eye
You were flirting with some girl
And I said I thought I would die

It’s a typical love story
We started out as friends
(friends)
We met way back when
(when)
This is just a typical love story
The boy you never wanted
Just steals your heart
I never saw it comin’
Till I fell so hard

Can’t believe it’s happening
When I least expect it
My prince under disguise
How you fooled me with those eyes
When I feel like letting go
In your arms is where I know
I am (don’t know what she says there)
From the beginning
We always belong

Love Love Story Love
Love Story Love
Love Story Love
Love Story Love
Love Story Love
(This is my)
Love Story Love
(This is my Love Story)
Love Story love
Love Story Love
This is my Love Story

It’s a typical love story
We started out as friends
This is how it ends
This is just a
Typical love story
The boy you never wanted
Just steals your heart
I never saw it comin’
Till I fell so hard

It’s a typical love story
We started out as friends
This is how it ends
This is just a
Typical love story
The boy you never wanted
Just steals your heart
I never saw it comin’
Till I fell so hard

Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh ah
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh ah

Tattoo

by Jordin Sparks

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I’ll get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I’m wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing’s broken
No need to worry ’bout everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you
I’ll always have you, I’ll always have you)

I’m sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I’m wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you
I’ll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

Here You Come Again
by Dolly Parton

Here you come again
Just when I’m about to make it work without you
You waltz right in the door
Just like you done before
And wrap my heart round your little finger
Here you come again
Just when I’m about to make it work without you
You look into my eyes
And light those dreamy eyes
And pretty soon I’m wondering
How I came to doubt you
All you gotta do
Is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you
And in a little while
You’re messing up my mind
An filling up my senses

Here you come again
Looking better than a body
Has a right to
And shaking me up so
That all I really know
Is here you come again
An here I go

All you gotta do
Is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you
And in a little while
You’re messing up my mind
And filling up my senses

Here you come again
Looking better than a body
Has a right to
And shaking me up so
That all I really know
Is here you come again
An here I go

Fade:
Here I go
And here I go
And here I go
Here you come again
And here I go
Here I go
And here I go

My LSS is still "That’s What You Get" by Paramore, hence the title of this post is a line from that song.

I’m
not hurting as much as I’ve been since last, last Saturday, but I am
seeing a lot of people who are hurting and/or confused. It’s difficult
to give advice to hurt and confused people when you yourself are just
getting over the hurt and confusion. But let this piece be a
comment/reply on all the blog posts about losing someone/being stupid
because of loving someone/fighting for someone you love that I’ve read.

We
do stupid things because of love, so people who don’t want to do
something stupid avoid love or at least avoid talking about love or
their feelings so that they don’t have to let other people know that
they themselves had done foolish acts. We all have a story to tell.
Just these past few days, I have read a lot about those stories. I
don’t know if I’ll be happy because I am not alone or if I’ll be sad
because we’re too many.

A friend of mine posted a collection of quotes about the ironies and pains of love.
A lot of them are very true, even though you wish they weren’t. I’ve
collected a lot of sayings about that topic along my journey in life.
I’ve even created some of my own…

Anyway, so here is more
verbal diarrhea on my thoughts on this topic… This is for people who
lost someone they love or have unrequited love…

First, as I’ve
said to Nats, just because you love someone, it doesn’t mean you have
to be with them… And he’s reply to me was "totoong hindi kailangang kayo o
mahal ka rin niya para mahalin ang isang tao… basta kapag nalilito ka
na at hindi mo na alam, iinom mo na lang ng… BEER." Sometimes it may
call for a San Mig Light and for heavier issues, STRONG ICE. Hehe…

Anyway, kidding aside…

As
I’ve said before, I hate the phrase "you deserve someone better" even
if it’s very, very, very true. You won’t be able to see the worth of
that phrase when you are in love with someone who doesn’t deserve you
because the point of loving anyway is giving love unconditionally. You
don’t require the person you love to be something in order for you to
love him/her. You don’t require that person to be someone who deserves
you before you give your heart to him/her. I don’t use the phrase "you
deserve someone better" to my friends because I know what it feels when
you hear it. It’s just like "I told you so" which is a phrase that I
know a lot of us, if not all, doesn’t want to hear.

But as
dreadful as "you deserve someone better" is to hear, we should be open
to the fact that there really is someone out there, other than the
person whom we love and had hurt us, that we can love and maybe even
love us back. Yes, we can’t chose someone we love, but it doesn’t mean
we cannot love again.

I love Lara Fabian’s song "I Will Love
Again" because it’s true. As long as our heart is beating we can love
again. As the song puts it, "even if it takes a life time, I will love
again." Yes, it’s difficult, really difficult, and it may take a long
time but it can happen. We just have to be open.

You don’t stop
loving a person just because the person has stopped loving you or
because he/she cannot love you in the way you want him/her to, but
you’ll be able to love someone else more. Feelings don’t die (even if
most people say they do) but they only fade or move into the back to
give room for new feelings. The process takes time and hurts a lot, but
you’ll live through it. ^^;

So, as Ate C always tell us, "let go and let God".

Cheers to happiness! (we’ll eventually get it ^^;)

And why do we like to hurt so much? - sabi ng kanta ng Paramore na "That’s What You Get". Oo nga, why do we like to hurt so much pagdating sa love? Bakit kahit alam na nating masasaktan lang tayo eh sumisige pa rin?

Just when I thought the pain "it" will bring isn’t new to me and that I can get over it easily, I’ll learn that it’s totally different.

How I wish this was just about my ex, that I miss him, that I long for him, that I still feel the way I used to about him. But then again, it’s not about him. Even if I’d rather feel that old pain, that’s not what I feel anymore. I’m feeling something else, something else I hate to feel.

And why do we like to hurt so much?

Haysh… Anyone wants to go to Providence next week?

Catch Me I’m Falling For You
Toni Gonzaga

          I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I feel something that seem so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
Cause I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong
For love to come along
Catch me I’m falling for you
How can love let it grow
When it has no place to go
And I can’t go along pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you

If I could just walk away
Without you from day to day
I would die just thinkin’ of you
I know we can never be
More than friends you and me
But why do I feel this way?

Catch me, I’m fallin’ for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong
For love to come along
Catch me I’m falling for you
Maybe someday I’ll see
Why love did this to me
Coz I can’t go along pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you

Catch me I’m falling for you
And its wrong for me to feel this way
Coz I don’t know what to
do without you
I’m falling for you
Catch me I’m falling for you

Catch me I’m falling for you
How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you

We can’t be forever in training or nesting. It’s time for us to face
the real challenges of being "travel specialists". I’m thankful that
you are my batchmates, trainers, mentors and nesting supe.

Gracie (trainer) - "Aiza Seguerra"
You are one heck of a trainer. Sana maregular ka na sa position na
iyan. =p You exude confidence and that confidence was somehow
transferred to us, your trainees.

Ate Letlet/Celeste (trainer) - "PS Idol/Idol Naming Single"
You make training so fun. Thank you so much for your stories and for
all your assistance especially for the errors in booking. You’ll find
the right guy. Okay lang maging choosy ka, you have the right to be,
dahil super suwerte naman ng magiging jowa mo sayo

Marl (trainer) - "Tito"
Even if you were only with us for a couple of days, we still had fun
learning with you. I will never forget the song you invented "Mandalay,
Mandalay". Whatever you’re going through right now, you’ll survive. Be
happy! =D

Miss Liz (supervisor) - "Boss Liz"
You are the best nesting supervisor, nagbabash na, sweet pa rin. Hehe.
I’m so happy that I’ll be part of your team on the ops floor. I’ll do
my best na hindi ka mabigo at makatulong sa pag-angat ng stats ng team. =D

Trish (mentor) - "Evil Mentor"
Hindi ka naman evil, ewan ko ba kay Rommel. Haha. Kahit hindi ako part
ng microteam mo, you’ve been very helpful to me. Thanks for everything.

Duwem (mentor) - "Client"  Kahit na naprepressure ako sayo, marami kang naituro para makabenta ako. Thanks for the tips, spiels and verbiages.

Rommel - "California Guy" You don’t have call center experience sabi mo, pero astig kang makasale. Salamat sa libreng beer. Hehe.

Zelle - "Miss"
Transferring to another account drew us closer and it showed na may
future ka sa sales. Keep up the good job, miss. Sana sa susunod na Prov
gimik eh makasama na ako. Hehe.

Frank - "The Man" Ganda ng mga tattoo mo, dude. Hehe. Isa pang astig magbenta, super sipag magcallback at  pang-rockstar ang boses.

Rick - "Mr. Rapport" Idol kita sa building rapport. Always smile dahil nakakahawa at nakakatulong for us to have fun in our job.

Irene - "Makinis"
Maganda ang benta pag katabi kita. You’re the youngest in our group
(well, except for Gracie, pero ibang usapan na iyon) but you think very
maturely. Thanks for your advice, pero parang hindi ako iyong dapat
kinakausap about it.

Joy - "Mommy"
Irate agent, pero lakas pa rin bumenta. Just always be confident. And
about iyong personal, kaya mo iyon! You’re a strong person and I know
that you can make it.

May Anne - "Todo Na ‘To Girl"
Super idol sa benta! At dahil teammate kita kailangang kabugin natin
ang ibang teams Thanks for the advice and words of wisdom.

And of course, Enzo - "Silent Killer"
Pare, this account is for you dahil napakabolero mo. Mamimiss ko nga
lang na ikaw ang lunch buddy ko, partner sa pag-side comments and
ka-feng shui. Hinay-hinay sa girls and ingat sa mga nagkakacrush na
gays ;P I’ll see you around, friend.

Thanks to all of you. You
saw how frustrated I was on the first two days of nesting when I can’t
make a sale, but because of you, guys, who had been so supportive and
encouraging and so fun to be with I learned to love sales. Let’s all be
always happy, the world needs more happy people. Hehe. Hindi naman
magkakalayo ang shifts natin at halos pare-pareho naman off natin. I’ll
see you all around!

Videos of our Grad:
Til My Heartache Ends
Beer
Conga

Cheers to happiness! =D